Silence so Priceless

Right now I am feeling very happy. Its 5 am in the morning. I got up just an hour ago, to study Law. If I think about the possible reason why I am happy, probably I wont be able to think of any, but for the first time in IMT I am getting one thing which is priceless. Yes I am referring to silence. IMT is so full of noises and distracters, that I feel lost in this noisy world.

Now when I have silence in the outside world, I can feel the noise that is there within me. At times listening to the noise of our inner self is very important. It makes us think about the choices that we have made… it makes us think about our future life and many more things.

When I was a small child, in the morning I used to go near the river Ganges( My house was on the bank of the river, in Allahabad) and I used to sit at its bank for hours watching the flow of the river. My servant “jokhan Bhaiya” was always there with me. He used to think that I was crazy. He used to call me “babu”. Every day he used to tell my mom: “memsaab lagta hai bade hoke babu sadhu na ban jayein” (Madam I think babu is going to become a saint after he grows up).

Since then I have tried my best to spend some time alone. The moment I came to delhi I made sure that my flat was independent without any background noise of loud music. During winter after coming back from CL I used to sit on my huge terrace. Again I had a servant cum driver named Riyaj. He used to lit coal…yes lot of Imli ka koila..thats wooden coal…and I used to stare at the distant horizon trying to think about nothing.

After I came to IMT the only thing I miss the most is silence and solitude. I try to go for long walks, that’s the only time I am able feel the silence. I never get a feel that this room belongs to me. I haven’t shared a room for last six years so I feel quite uncomfortable in sharing it now. Specially when I am sleeping I need total darkness and silence…which I think is going to be a dream in IMT.
A dream...